by Matthew Zapruder
photo: Sarah Malone
these days sometimes
in a purple t-shirt
that says Massachusetts
Ann determines not to tell anyone that she is dying. She creates a clandestine life, a second self. And maybe that is the allure of keeping this secret. Much like an affair, it becomes a thrilling and terrifying thing for your brain to fondle and obsess about, to knock down walls and expand rooms over. Dying and cheating can be almost strangely life-giving.
Where can we open up another life outside of sex and death? Neither of these options appeals right now, but it raises the question of whether that secret life could serve its purpose without the hovering risk of pain for the people you don’t want to hurt. It’s hard to separate the need for privacy from the drive to burn everything to the ground.
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